“Blogging should be fun!”
This is what my husband just said to me after asking how my day went and possibly considering how many times I’ve tried in vain to get this blogging ball rolling.
I can’t seem to quit it, but I can’t get it right either.
When I first started blogging back in 2011, my heart was in the right place. Considering myself an avid reader and writer, I decided to give it a try. It wasn’t always easy, but it was definitely rewarding. I was reading tons of different posts on a variety of topics, engaging with others, and showing up even when it was awkward and I had no clue what I was doing.
For years, I’ve been saying how very much I want to get back in touch with what made me fall in love with blogging in the first place. How nice it would be to finally get to the point where I can honor this space by documenting my world and feelings in a mindful way, and to once again support others on their journey.
Too often I find myself paralyzed with the need for perfection. If I can’t execute something exactly as I see it in my head, I tend to end up stuck and not moving forward with things at all.
It’s just not how I want to go about my business anymore.
And there is also the magical way that life has of breaking you down to slow you down, and help you take notice of the small things that matter most.
Take for instance, a big move clear across the country during a complicated pregnancy that you sort of planned for but still didn’t see coming. Or having to put the breaks on your once active lifestyle for long stretches of bedrest.
Needless to say, I’ve had lots of time to think about…well…the way I overthink things. And this unpredictable pregnancy has me surrendering all kinds of control even to this day!
I have plenty to write about if I can stop: a) censoring myself b) fearing my own truth and c) comparing myself to others.
Life has emptied my plate, deepened my perspective, and taken away nearly all of my excuses.
Suddenly, I feel it’s the least I can do.
I’ve never seen someone not get better with consistent effort. Not ever!
It’s time to stop thinking about looking foolish and just have some fun.
If can manage to get out of my own way, there should be much more to come.